tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-24231487004318450552024-03-13T19:36:30.555-07:00Life's Journey; Weight, Life, Self-Love, & Everything In-between!Angeweenahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12626755892447970067noreply@blogger.comBlogger308125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2423148700431845055.post-64362179221874718572012-01-03T19:40:00.000-07:002012-01-03T19:58:44.715-07:00Dear Blog; Year 2 Day 1Happy New Year! <br />
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What can I say besides 2011 was a year of change and a year of learning more about who I am. I have been humbled by so many of you out there in my little world and all the overwhelming support to see me succeed even when I didn't think I could do it. It is a day to day struggle (since I am trying to undo 30 years of old habits that seriously DIE HARD! ). I have come a long way and I don't give myself enough credit for that. So I want to say, "ANGELA you are AWESOME and you have made GREAT strides in your PROGRESS towards a healthier life."<br />
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That being said I have will admit that over the holiday break I sort of let things go more than I should have. Not sort of, I DID let things go. I wanted to give myself some room to expand my waist line...how did it feel do you ask? CRAPPY. I didn't have the sugar or carbs etc I stayed faithful to that but I did allow myself to over eat. I cannot tell you how much I realize that, that is not what I want in my life. I may not always like to be limited on what I am consuming or that I still stare longingly at those that can consume carbs that are instantly burned and never reach their thighs. I still dream about food, making it, eating it, rolling in it, etc. but at the same time I know that I am stronger than the food, or at least I am gaining more strength then I give the food. Instead of food having the larger percentage for example 99.9% I now feel that food only has a 60% hold on me and I have a 40 % hold on it. <br />
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I am raring to go with what 2012 has to offer me. There are so many great and hard things coming my way this year and I want to enjoy every moment. I want to walk across the stage at my graduation in May and be proud of the person that I have become. I want to look at a pizza and be satisfied with one slice. I want to walk 2 miles without the idea feeling insurmountable. I know that all of these things are possible and mark my words they will all be accomplished. I know I can do it. <br />
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I never realized how far my story/journey has traveled and effected others' lives. I started blogging and being completely honest with myself and with you because I wanted others to know that a real person who struggles often can be successful and if I can do it...I can gaurantee that you can as well. I didn't just want to change myself but I wanted to inspire others to see that change is possible for them as well. There are so many things that I keep/kept locked in my little head that I just never thought anyone in the world ever felt the same way; people please, I was so wrong. there are so many of you that have shared your stories with me and have made me realize that I am not alone; and that I have NEVER been alone. <br />
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I still have some progress to make but I am well on my way! Yes I have hit the 100lb mark (we won't mention the 5 lbs I gained over the holiday....that will come off right away). That is a huge milestone in my life. I have several goals this year. I want to graduate, move across country, be on the Ellen show (for my weight loss story) and be on the cover of People magazines 1/2 their size issue for 2013! (If any of you know anyone that works for Ellen, or for People and can pull some strings for me that would be great! lol). <br />
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Lastly, I want you to know that this past year I went to Disneyland and I was able to ride every ride with no issues, thanks to a smaller waistline as well as flying home without using an extender for my seat belt. I will have you know that a couple of years back I "borrowed" an extender so that I didn't have to continually ask for one whenever I flew; this December I "returned" said "borrowed" extender because this girl doesn't need it ANYMORE! <br />
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Here is to an amazing year for you and for me! I wish all of you success in all that you choose to do this year. I also want to thank you from the bottom of my heart for your continual thoughts, prayers, and encouragement that you unconditionally give me! You are the best, always and forever!<br />
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<br />Angeweenahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12626755892447970067noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2423148700431845055.post-39162326415635450832011-12-01T16:29:00.001-07:002011-12-01T16:41:18.333-07:00Dear blog, Day 300+I have no excuse except that I have been busy. I had every intention of blogging everyday this year to mark my journey but 3 weeks have gone by and not a peep out of me. I just don't have the memory I used to and so to go back and try and re-create what happened over the course of 3 weeks just won't happen so here I am writing one post to cover all that has gone on. I finally hit my 100 lb mark. Go me, and soon after I challenged myself to stick to my plan while spending time at disneyland. I don't know what I was thinking except that I needed a vacation, time with my best friend, and time with mickey mouse. All in all, I was successful. My best friend made a comment that really hit home. She said, there are many things that I like about your weight loss but one thing I like the most is that you are so much more willing to take and be in pictures. It's true. although I am not where I want to be I am 100lbs smaller than I was this time last year. I feel better and there fore I actually like how I look in pictures these days. Its not va va voom but it is awww isn't she cute! Yep I am in the cute stage, I might even venture to say pretty. <br />
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This time of year that I am heading into is going to be tough. I won't lie I think about food often these days. All the sweets, and starches and carb-laden food I can really see myself eating. In reality it is just food, I get that but that doesn't stop me from desiring it. I am determined to be successful. More than I am determined to be successful, I WILL BE SUCCESSFUL. I am too far into this to put it on hold now. I may sound like I am confident but on the inside I am a scared child. <br />
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Bring on the holidays, I know I will survive. As my cousin wrote on my message board I am going to keep on keeping on.<br />
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Love angelaAngeweenahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12626755892447970067noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2423148700431845055.post-74477961679567378892011-11-14T16:15:00.001-07:002011-11-14T23:04:34.284-07:00Dear Blog; Day 300So great that my 300th day falls on a Saturday who would have thought. I should celebrate by eating something, because that is how we celebrate right?!?!? Wrong...although that is not entirely true. I have been "celebrating" also known as stress eating a lot lately. I just can't seem to stop myself. I just turn my brain off and ignore the nagging feeling and just go where the food is. Granted I have come along way and on the outside it may seem like I have it all together and that I have such "will power" but inside I am scared and tired and feeling pretty weak. I figure if I can keep it together in front of people then I am doing good. But secretly as much as I don't want people to point it out, I just need someone to give me a hug, and let me know that it is ok but that I need to keep going and get back into the real swing of things. <br />
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Happy 300 days Angela !<br />
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Lo<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 18px;">ve, Angela</span></span>Angeweenahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12626755892447970067noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2423148700431845055.post-7263667435038052562011-11-08T20:46:00.000-07:002011-11-12T20:37:40.254-07:00Dear Blog; Day 299<br />
Our ward had trunk or treat tonight. My friend from school brought his wife and daughter. We just hung out and had a great time and his daughter received a ton of candy. It was most definitely a good night. We really enjoyed ourselves and their little daughter was so cute. It was nice ending to a busy long day of class.<br />
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We have been getting off a little easier the last week or so since we really only have 1 class on Fridays. It is ok that it is a 5 hour class, makes it seem like we are getting a break some how. I don't now how to explain it. <br />
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I have to admit I did a great job of staying away from the candy what I really wanted to do was steal all the chocolate from all the little kids walking by. They would never notice all of the good stuff missing from their bags I mean the get so much of it anyway. I should make them pay me to get candy from me! Hey they will get fat, and who needs fat kids I mean really! ( Ok, I didn't mean that, all kids are cute no matter what)!<br />
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Love, AngelaAngeweenahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12626755892447970067noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2423148700431845055.post-48611440072649367052011-11-08T20:38:00.000-07:002011-11-08T20:38:48.416-07:00Dear Blog; Day 298The days just blur into the next. I don't know what day it is usually. I just walk around in a haze. I taught my first lesson today in 5th grade. It was a math lesson, I know shocker. After it was over and we had walked the students out for the day my mentor teacher told me that what I did was the best lesson that she had seen/heard from any teacher candidate she has had in her room. I was floored. It was such a huge compliment. I really had a hard time wrapping my head around it. It pretty much made my day that is for sure! <br />
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Love, AngelaAngeweenahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12626755892447970067noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2423148700431845055.post-40846306440105119402011-11-08T20:36:00.000-07:002011-11-08T20:36:36.497-07:00Dear Blog; Day 297I am starting to get so lax on my health plan. I am doing the bare minimum. I really need to get refocused and re energized. I have about 2 months before my family sees me and I really want to meet my goal by the end of this year. So what if I don't meet my goal? Is the world going to end? No, I just won't have met my year long goal the world will continue spinning and I will continue to move forward. I plan on sticking to this health plan until graduation. I am hoping by then that I will have lost the whole amount of weight that I want to loose. So I will have graduation, a celebration for my weightloss, and I get to move ! This next 6-8 months are going to be amazing! A lot of hard work but amazing!. <br />
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Love, AngelaAngeweenahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12626755892447970067noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2423148700431845055.post-29208531967566620902011-11-08T20:33:00.000-07:002011-11-08T20:33:29.840-07:00Dear Blog; Day 296I am so far behind. I feel bad. I just have to do it. Get it done. These posts are going to be short and sweet. I also just found out that I can't import my blog to facebook anymore so you all will have to come to the actual blog to read it. So much more work for you! :) <br />
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This is week 2 with my 5th graders and we are heading into halloween. Who would have thought that it could be 90 degrees outside and october. They say that we are headed into cooler weather. I just hope that they are right. I can't handle it being this warm in October! Cross your fingers the temps go down. I just keep thinking that this time next year I will be in Washington DC and it will probably be snowing! So I guess I should really enjoy this weather while I still have it. Boy I just can't win can I.<br />
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Love, AngelaAngeweenahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12626755892447970067noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2423148700431845055.post-79341132106415130342011-11-04T21:05:00.000-07:002011-11-04T21:05:02.630-07:00Dear Blog; Day 295Oh I am so close to 300 hundred days. Can you believe I have managed to keep this up for so long? I know that I can't believe it. The hard part is continually being strong. I am having a hard time being strong. Each day I feel a little less strong. Something is eating at me (and not in a good way). I can't put my finger on it. I have been sneaking little things, nothing carb related. But sneaking is still sneaking. I am not trying to be hard on myself because I admit I have done a phenomenal job, but I am reverting to old habits and I don't want to, not intentionally anyway. I want to be able to not obsess about the left overs in the fridge all day or watch those around me eat there lunch bite by bite wishing I was eating that too. I don't want the first thing I do when I get home to be to look in the fridge or to continually concerned about what I get to eat next. I should be way past this....I wish I was way past this.<br />
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Love AngelaAngeweenahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12626755892447970067noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2423148700431845055.post-55367216804983324612011-11-04T20:57:00.000-07:002011-11-04T20:57:53.355-07:00Dear Blog; Day 294 (43 weeks down)I don't know why I feel I need to share with you what day of the week it is. It could be that I am so far behind that it keeps me in line so I don't forget what day of the week it is! I didn't make it to choir although I should have but I did make it to all 3 hours of church today which (pat myself on the back is an accomplishment). I have tried to make sundays homework free, but it just hasn't worked out that way. Such is life. Monday starts week 2 with my 5th graders. I am really enjoying this class. I really really like 5th grade. My teacher doesn't have me do a lot yet but I am hoping as I win her over that she will give me more and more responsibility. <div><br />
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After all that excitement I headed home to.....do homework! Are you shocked? I mean really who would have thought that I would be spending my day doing homework. <br />
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Love AngelaAngeweenahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12626755892447970067noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2423148700431845055.post-34760444711333578532011-11-01T12:11:00.000-07:002011-11-01T12:11:27.728-07:00Dear Blog; Day 292Friday. I just love fridays expect for the part where I have to be in class until 5 pm. Today is my cousins 30th birthday and we are going out to dinner. I am so excited I love food in case you hadn't noticed. Love it, just love it. ahhhh mmm food. Oh oh sorry I am back. Anyway we went to dinner. As we were headed down to Black Angus my aunt and I were talking about school and how I got to see my 2nd graders yesterday. When I got out of the car I noticed some people walking out of the door. I thought for a minute that they looked familiar... it was one of my students and her mother! When she recognized me she was so excited and came up and hugged me and her mother gave me a hug too. Honestly that is what I live for. That is what makes it worth doing, besides seeing students understanding and mastering learning. The look on her face I am sure was reflected in my face. <br />
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Dinner was decent. It was hard not to want to eat a roll or 5 and I obsessed over the pazookie cookie with vanilla bean ice cream melting into an ooey gooey lake all over the still hot cookie. BUT... i resisted. I feel successful when I am able to resist but honestly I thought about that dessert for at least an hour after dinner. I am really really struggling these days. I haven't fallen off the wagon but I am finding ways to cheat within the guidelines. Cheating is Cheating whether it is in the guidelines or out. Yes I am doing things differently but the big thing is why am I cheating at all! hmmmm let me think about this for a little bit......nope still thinking about the cookie!<br />
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Love AngelaAngeweenahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12626755892447970067noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2423148700431845055.post-39676375118618009542011-10-28T20:42:00.000-07:002011-10-28T20:42:01.358-07:00Dear Blog; Day 291It is a half day today!!! Yeah, except I have to go and sit with my other mentor teacher from 2nd grade and experience parent teacher conferences. I am excited to meet with the parents but it is a daunting task to have all of those conferences, I think that is the part of teaching that I am looking forward to least.<br />
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I finished up with 5th grade and raced over to my other school (following the speed limit and all traffic signs of course) because I wanted to see my 2nd graders before they headed home for the day. I was so worried that I would miss them; I didn't. I got there and surprised them in computer lab. I nearly got knocked over trying to get in the door, with hugs! It was a great feeling. At 7 and 8 years old they still love you. Do I want to teach 2nd not really but do I love the kids, you betcha! <br />
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It was so fun to sit down and talk with some of the parents and to be present for the conference side. I was interested to hear what some of the parents had to say and to actually spend a couple of minutes with some of the parents that I had not had the opportunity to meet or talk to previously. <br />
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All in all it was a good day and it was a great time, long but worth it!<br />
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Love, AngelaAngeweenahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12626755892447970067noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2423148700431845055.post-34008459523609762832011-10-23T00:21:00.000-07:002011-10-23T00:21:01.174-07:00Dear Blog; Day 290Middle of the week. It is such a funny place to be, in the middle. I feel like I am in the middle of a lot of things. In the middle of school, in the middle of my weight loss and in the middle of my life. It isn't good and it isn't bad, just in the middle. <br />
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Today was day 2 with 5th graders. I am really proud of myself I memorized all their names. I now need to make sure that none of them move their desks for the next 9 weeks! We had a meeting after school and I found out that we are doing a fall festival for all the families I am really excited about it. Our grade level is in charge of the photo booth! We are going to do props and everything. It should be really fun for us and for the families. <br />
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Love AngelaAngeweenahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12626755892447970067noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2423148700431845055.post-53839242789300358792011-10-21T20:57:00.000-07:002011-10-21T20:57:50.850-07:00Dear Blog; Day 289Walked this morning. I am trying to get up every morning at walk at 6 so far I have managed 2 days in the last two weeks. I just can't seem to get myself to get up that early. I know it is what I need to do to loose the weight that I want to loose by the time I go home for Christmas but I just can't seem to do it. <br />
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I need to stay focused. There are just so many things that I have to focus on that I just don't know where to start focusing. Oh well, I know that I am not the only that struggles with this. I just want to be able to focus long enough to get off the weight I need I want and need to loose. <br />
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Love AngelaAngeweenahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12626755892447970067noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2423148700431845055.post-59656852068093765592011-10-20T21:33:00.000-07:002011-10-20T21:33:29.930-07:00Dear Blog; Day 288Today is my first day with my new class of 5th graders. I am really looking forward to this. Like with any new situation I am anxious but I am good! I just got comfortable in what I was doing with 2nd graders and now I make the switch to 5th graders. It is going to be tough but it is going to be good. I know I am going to like it here...in the words of Annie from the musical Annie. <br />
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I felt like a little lost puppy following my mentor teacher around. It is what it is though, and I am glad that I get along with her. It is going to make it so much easier going forward. <br />
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Love AngelaAngeweenahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12626755892447970067noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2423148700431845055.post-59145353451481671182011-10-20T21:21:00.000-07:002011-10-20T21:21:58.544-07:00Dear Blog; Day 287 (42 weeks down)It is a good think I don't drink. I feel like poo poo this morning but it isn't a hangover. I think I might refer to it as a fun-over. I had so much fun I need a day of rest to get over it. Lol I am getting too old to walk around in 3 1/2 inch heels for 7 hours and dance like it was 1999. Too funny. Today I am going to relax, but I really am not feeling well. I can't wait to do it again!<br />
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Love AngelaAngeweenahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12626755892447970067noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2423148700431845055.post-42087111015015231032011-10-18T18:53:00.000-07:002011-10-18T18:53:04.376-07:00Dear Blog; Day 286Wow today was a busy busy day. It started off with a drive to Prescott. My best friend and I her mom and her 2 nieces went up to the pumpkin patch. It was suppose to be cooler up there but it wasn't. Although the weather wasn't cooler we had a great time. We found pumpkins which we are going to carve in a couple of weeks. Some of us had kettle corn, which didn't include me. I did have some roasted chicken and some peanuts. I was a good girl. I didn't even have a sip of fresh apple cider or peanut butter sandwich or a granola bar or pringles or even a cheeseburger or french fries. It took every ounce of willpower I had to not put the french fry in my mouth.... I am telling you what. I have no idea if I am ever going to get over this obsession of food. I can't even stand it some days. But I made it through another day and another set of obstacles that involved food. The day was great. We took lots of pictures, and fed animals and took a hayride. I love days like today.<br />
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After we returned home I went out to scottsdale and went out with some friends from school. We started at a sports bar called majerles where we watched the ASU oregon state game. After that we headed to a bar called the lodge and after that we ended the night at a place called wild night. We had such a great time dancing the night away. It was lots of fun. I haven't been out like that for a long time and a part of me has missed it. I can't do it all the time, I just am not as young as I once was but it was fun to do it for a night. I made it home somewhere around 230 am. I was beat! <br />
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The day was great overall. I enjoyed every minute of it. I am glad that I gave myself sometime to chillax...I really needed it! <br />
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Love AngelaAngeweenahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12626755892447970067noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2423148700431845055.post-12656220268606461182011-10-16T19:54:00.000-07:002011-10-16T19:54:10.183-07:00Dear Blog; Day 285Finished off the week without eating biscuits and gravy at "the place" or eating chips and salsa at "villa Luna" or running out and getting a cheeseburger just because I wanted one. I made it through another week. All my assignments are in (thank you 3 am) and my presentations are done. And now I get to have fun this weekend. No homework or planned activities. I think I will make some room just to play. <br />
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soooo since I was up so late last night I took my self to bed by 9 pm. I was literally falling asleep serving dishes in my facebook cafe. That is a sign that I need SLEEEEPPP! So good night...<br />
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Love AngelaAngeweenahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12626755892447970067noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2423148700431845055.post-89499339364583839012011-10-14T21:09:00.000-07:002011-10-14T21:09:28.323-07:00Dear Blog; Day 284Today was my last day with my 2nd graders. I was so sad to leave them. They did some really sweet things for me though. My mentor teacher had been planning for a couple of weeks what she was going to do for my last day. She had the kids write little saying about me for each letter of the alphabet which they then presented to me. So sweet and they each wrote me class letters which they put into a book. Also all of the parents donated money and I received some teaching things and a gift card to AMC. I felt so loved and appreciated it. I am planning on popping in on them every once in a while to check on them. This is really why I teach! I also got some roses and lots and lots of hugs. <br />
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After school I met up with my grocery shopping friend and we saw a movie. We saw whats your number? It was actually pretty funny at times but other times you just wonder why they thought that would be good to put in the film. Guess they think that is what sells or is funny. Oh well, after that I went home and hit the books hard. I finally crawled into bed at 3 am only to hear the alarm at 6:45....tomorrow is going to be a long day for sure!<br />
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Love AngelaAngeweenahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12626755892447970067noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2423148700431845055.post-51565495831928746552011-10-12T19:27:00.000-07:002011-10-12T19:27:03.744-07:00Dear Blog; Day 283I have just one more day with my 2nd graders. :( It is pretty bitter sweet. I am going to miss the kids and the teachers and the school but I am on to another class, school and teachers. I know that I am creating relationships with collegues and friends that will carry me into the next phase of my life. I appreciate how willing everyone has been thus far to help me be successful and to share their knowledge with me. My mentor teacher is planning something fun for me tomorrow an I am really excited about it. It is really sweet of them.<br />
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I have a lot of things to do before friday and yet I am here blogging. I just really need to get my butt into gear and get focused, I just don't have the time to be off task especially if I want to sleep in the next 2 days. Sooo, I am off to work!<br />
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Love, AngelaAngeweenahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12626755892447970067noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2423148700431845055.post-34988935615774620442011-10-12T19:23:00.000-07:002011-10-12T19:23:43.897-07:00Dear Blog; Day 282I am ready to move on to new classes. Bring on the science and math... (did I just say that out loud!?!) Oh I failed to mention that I passed 1 of my 2 tests that I need to take to be certified. I still have to take the other which I am going to do in January. I really thought I wasn't going to pass so when it said passed I nearly fell out of my chair! Gosh there is another reminder that I need to have more faith in myself. <br />
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Love AngelaAngeweenahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12626755892447970067noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2423148700431845055.post-28655867700641185122011-10-11T12:24:00.000-07:002011-10-11T12:24:22.524-07:00Dear Blog; Day 281Today was a day of preparation and reflection. I prepared for my presentation on assessments and I reflected on how much I have changed since January. The pictures I posted yesterday really opened my eyes. I have made progress and I finally see that progress. My fat brain still needs to catch up with my not as fat body. It is funny how long things like that take to happen. <div><br />
</div><div>I also got a chance to babysit my best friends niece aka "my adopted niece" I just love her to pieces. She is 15 months now and walking and talking. I used to babysit her everyday when she was a baby but as she has gotten older I and I don't live with them anymore I don't see her nearly as much. She is in that stage where she just wants auntie and grammy and so she doesn't come to me like she used to. I needed that time with her to reconnect. I just love that little girl! </div><div><br />
</div><div>I have a very blessed life. I have great people, an awesome family, I am on my way to career that I am passionate about and I am happy. I struggle and I am stressed but I am honestly happy! </div><div><br />
</div><div>Happy is a good place to be. </div><div><br />
</div><div>Love angela</div>Angeweenahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12626755892447970067noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2423148700431845055.post-18663533604367407442011-10-10T22:25:00.000-07:002011-10-10T22:25:38.956-07:00Dear Blog; Day 280 (41 weeks down)This is a day I know all of you have been waiting for. I have been making you wait and wait for updated pictures...but the day has arrived. First drum rolll please....I am down 91.5 lbs since January! Take that food monster.. despite the stress and torture you provide me on a daily basis slowly but surely I am beating you. One day at a time one meal at a time. <br />
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Here is what you have really been waiting for. This first picture is a face shot from December 2010. This is right before I started Medifast..... <br />
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This next picture was taken today 91.5 lbs lost<br />
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I had a hard time finding a full body shot for this next one because I hated having my picture taken in general but here is what I looked like in December 2010<br />
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And here is a full bod shot as of today 91.5 lbs lost. I have to admit until today I didn't see a difference. I know I still have a long way to go but I have to acknowledge that I have come so very far already. I can actually see the difference in the next picture and it brings a happy tear to my eye. I am so very proud of myself and it gives me the continual drive to keep going. I can do this... I can do this...I have been doing this!<br />
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I huge layer of self hate remove in it's place a thick layer of self love is placed. <br />
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Love AngelaAngeweenahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12626755892447970067noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2423148700431845055.post-137143393769368762011-10-10T22:12:00.000-07:002011-10-10T22:12:38.066-07:00Dear Blog; Day 279I have no idea where the day went. First think I know I am up and the next thing I know I am back in bed. What happened in between is a complete and utter blur. I believe there was grocery shopping in there and dropping grandma off at walmart. Oh and I made fajitas...with cauliflower tortillas. Yes you heard me correctly; cauliflower tortillas. I know I know, it isn't the exact same but it is a definite substitute I can live with. It could be that my taste buds have complete changed or fallen off so I can't really tell anything anymore or I have learned to appreciate what ever I can get that is even remotely close to tortillas, regardless it was decent. <br />
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I welcome sleep like an old friend...wrap your arms around me and rock me to sleep!<br />
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Love AngelaAngeweenahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12626755892447970067noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2423148700431845055.post-6464502513124233092011-10-10T22:08:00.000-07:002011-10-10T22:08:25.525-07:00Dear Blog; Day 278Today for my class we were actually at my school so I popped in on my 2nd graders and helped out my mentor teacher a little this morning. She was surprised to see me, but was glad for my help. One of my students thought today was my last day so him and his mom brought me in a card and some home made cookies. They were snickerdoodles the paradise bakery recipe. I just took a minute to smell the bag...then I sadly passed them out to everyone around me. It was so very thoughtful of them but I was sad that I couldn't enjoy them. It is ok, I know that some day will be able to enjoy a cookie once in a while, just not right now. <br />
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Then after school I had another class where we had pizza and salad and more cookies. I say we but really I mean everyone but me. I had some salad which was satisfying; who would have thought that I would be satisfied with a salad. <br />
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Then when I got home grammy felt like it was her mission to get cookies for aunt viv's jewelry open house. I couldn't even go in the store. My will power had all been used up the rest of today I did not trust myself to enter the grocery store and not come out with 10 things that were NOT on the list. When we got home I obsessed over the cookies. I stood for a full minute just staring at them underneath their plastic blanket taunting me. I finally was able to break the trance; I stuck my tongue out at the cookies and walked away. I was not going to let them win no matter what! <br />
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It is ok that I went to bed crying....I never went back down stairs to eat them so I guess the tears were worth it. (Ok I didn't really cry but I thought about it....I couldn't let the cookies win though, so I stayed strong!)<br />
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Love AngelaAngeweenahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12626755892447970067noreply@blogger.com0