Wednesday! (aka Hump day, because it is in the middle of the week, its down hill to the weekend!) I was a home body today. I have to admit is scares me sometimes to go out. I get worried that I am going to make a bad choice. I just really don't want that, pluss i am broke so I hang out at home. My allergies make my life a bunch of sneeze and bless you's. I have been pleased so many times I should go straight to heaven. (ok bad joke i know, so sue me.) My nose is raw and red, and it drips like a faucet. Makes for a pretty face, ohhh so pretty. Oh well what can I do. I caught up on my Glee episodes, love that show. And I watched a few movies. I tried to keep myself away from the fridge, but that didn't work out quiet so well. In fact, I want to go down there right now but I am resisting the urge. What do I really need from the fridge? It can't hug me even though the doors open wide enough; I guess it could but who wants a cold lifeless hug from a fridge. I would rather pass on the kind of comfort the fridge can give me and move on to the real life people hugs they are much better and warmer. Please hold...... ok I am back just had to get a hug since I was thinking about it.
I found out today that I get to go on a little trip in about a week. I am excited but at the same time I am very very very nervous. I will be gone 13 days. Yep 13. That is 13 days of being on my own the only medifaster in a household of (hmmm what should I call non medifast people) medislowers. (ok I will have to think on that, but it is late and it was all I could come up with.) I have to pack my food, cross my fingers and pray everyday that I am going to be able to get through it. This is my first gynormous test of my will power and my desire to want more then the instant gratification that eating things I am chosing not to will bring. I think I am ready for this test; and if I am not I don't really get a choice. The nice thing about this particular test is that it isn't a pass or fail. If for some reason I slip up I just pick back up and move on. I don't need to beat myself up or get depressed because I only look forward. I won't be able to change what I did but I can do it different going forward.
I am telling you now that I DO NOT INTEND TO put a dent in my progress. I know that I am going to need my life coach a lot during the time that I am gone; as well as the support and positive thoughts from all of you. I know that I can do this. I know that I am stubborn enough to not let food win! Food may push me down and rub my face in the mud but I will get up and throw mud back. Food will not win this battle, its on! Challenge/test accepted.
Love Angela
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