Dear Blog; Day 105 (15 weeks down) Weigh in #3

I got up this morning and spent some time chatting with my grocery shopping friend.  It was funny because during mid conversation she said, "I know this is off topic, but your face looks a lot thinner!"  I had to giggle.  That was so sweet of her, but it was funny because it was so random.  It then reminded me that she had a scale downstairs and I really wanted to check in and see my progress.  I jumped up, bounced down the stairs, dropped my pants and stepped on.  I took a deep breath and thought "thin thoughts" and looked down.  What I saw was a 12 lb weight loss since leaving for my vacation to my parents house.  Not only that but I have now officially hit the 50lb weight loss total.  Can you believe that! 

 50 lbs.

I know that this is a lot I do not deny that.  I am so very very proud of myself for getting to this point.  It is funny that the first thing that I wanted to do was celebrate with food.  I know that is going to take a long time to get over, that being my first thought, but I know that it will come with time.  50 lbs on me does not look like a lot, but for my health it is a lot.  It is one thing when you are person who weighs 220 or 200 or 170 and looses 50 lbs as opposed to someone who weights 350 or 400 or 320 and looses 50 lbs. Regardless losing is losing and it is a lot of steps in the right direction.  I am happy, I am excited and I am up for the challenge. 

I am learning ways to look at food differentlly, and to make peace with food.  I look forward to tomorrows sunrise and a new week.  Another day closer to my optimal health!

Love Angela