Dear Blog; Day 115

Back to 2nd grade I went.  It is definitely more diffcult to keep them focused at the end of the year compared to other times during the year.  It is nice that they respond to me though.  I am also feeling confidence surge through me.  It has been a long time since I have felt confident in a classroom. I think the hardest part about being a sub is the lack of respect that you are given by the students.  Somedays it is hard to establish that respect and authority at the beginning, especially when you are worried that they won't "like you."  I have to keep reminding myself that it's ok that they might not like me.  I am there to keep the peace, to facilitate learning and to get them through the day without killing each other.  Sometimes being a sub is difficult; stepping into a well established pair of shoes and not really knowing what size they are or even what style of shoe they are.  Just shove your foot in and hit the ground running is all you can do! 

After school my cousin and I decided that we wanted to see a movie so we headed to super saver cinema; lovingly refered to as the dollar theater even though it hasn't been a dollar since like 1996.  We went to see just go with it starring adam sandler and jennifer aniston.  I would give it about a 7 it was pretty entertaining.  Can I tell you even though I want movie theater popcorn every time I go to the theater, I am finding it easier and easier to be ok with not having it.  It is ok to want things.  We all have wants.  But realizing that I don't have to have it is a pretty awesome feeling too. (Just wanted to add that little tidbit) On our way out we started talking, we decided to sit outside for a little bit and shoot the breeze.  We haven't spent a lot of time talking about important things, we have been spending time over the last little bit getting to know each other again.  It was nice to talk.  To talk about important things, and feelings and to learn more about each other.  We have most definitely established a very real and very close relationship; one that I am grateful for and excited to see grow. 

Love Angela