Dear Blog; Day 89

Day 9 of vacation.  Friday, friday today is Friday!  Today my dad and I went running errands, mostly to get me out of the house my mom is still worried I am bored.  I keep telling her I'm not but she doesn't believe me.  Well today noah decided to call in a flood in Port Angeles.  Being from arizona it is rare that I have shoes that are closed toed....I mean who really wants to cover up their cute pedicure with close toed shoes.  Today I needed them.  My mom's feet are too small for me to borrow shoes from her and my dads feet are too big, but his shoes were all I could use.  Sad day, I was walking in boats so our first stop was the shoe store for some more appropriate footwear attire.  I looked like such a goober; shoes too big; my pant legs rolled up to keep from getting soaked, and an umbrella the size of the sun.  Awww shoes that fit and will keep my toesy's dry what more could a girl want. 

On to costco for a few things; namely a cheesecake for my sisters birthday in 2 days.  Do you realize how amazing costco is?  Humongous cakes, hot fresh bread loaves, fruit, ice cream, premade pastas and pizza and oh wait candy; all kinds!  I tried to stay on task just get what we need and only what we need; but I kept rubber necking at the plethora of scrumptious edible items I passed.  When I finally looked down at the cart I saw my long lost food friends: cheese cake, beef jerky, and apples oh boy!  Oh this trip is turning into a food journey.......YEAH!  After costco we meandered our way to home for dinner then back to safeway for lasagna makings.  I must really love my sister on her birthday I am making lasagna and I am allowing a cheesecake to be brought into the house.  Neither one do I get to eat by the way.

It is getting harder and harder, I am starting to break down.  I just want food.  I want to be able to eat what I want when I want and with whom I want.  I don't like having to guard myself against all the foods I am choosing not to eat right now.  It is not easy.  Today I ate 2 pieces of cheese (not really on the plan but a better choice then anything else I could have eaten).  My life coach has forbidden me from eating peanut butter, I gave her the pouty face over the phone (which of course went un-noticed) but I relented and I have left it alone since then.  So I moved on to cheese.  Just a few more days Angela, you can do it! I am off to bed so I stay out of the fridge, good night.

Love Angela