Another week has come to an end and I feel like all I am doing is running to catch up. I am writing this sunday blog a week late. That is just not cool. I can't seem to keep on top of anything and all I want to do is eat all day long. I know it is stress related I know it is anxiety related. I know that it is emotionally related. I t I know all that but that doesn't change the fact that I want to eat. I now realize how an addict feels. You want it but you can't let youself give into it or you will totally go off the deep end.
I am not ready to swim in the water of life without my floaties on so here I sit on the shore staring out at all the kids playing in the water. I want to go and play with everyone else but I just do not trust myself or my skills yet. Until I do, I sit and I pace and once in a while I get to the edge and I dip my toes in. One day I will walk out there take off my floaties and swim with grace out to the others. In the mean time I practice everyday in my mind and on land where I am safe. I will take the leap one day and when I do I will be amazing!
Love Angela
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