Since I can't eat away my emotions or what is bothering my I now have to face them, and it is not fun. I had a really rough day today. I don't want to have days like this but sometimes it just can't be helped. Believe me I would just rather eat a pizza, then have to deal with the anxiety, stress and feeling like I can't get it all done! But i have chosen to face those emotions head on and they are scary I can tell you that much. Oh did I mention it is THAT time of the month. Sooooo I don't believe that needs any explanation.
After all this emotional stuff went down, I remembered that I had to be somewhere for school. I had to interact with people in my condition at an Italian restaurant! Ummm did we forget that Angela feeds her emotions instead of deals with them....guess others missed that memo. So there I sat trying to interact with parents and my mentor teacher while staring at a menu full of carbs and fats. I could barely look at the menu without crying. Why is this so dang hard! I made it though with no tears and no stealing bites of chicken fettachini from the mom sitting next to me oorrrr having a piece of the exactly 4 different refills of fresh made foccottia bread that was set down in front of me. No one would have known if I had a piece or 5. But I would have known and that was enough for me not to do it!
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