Guess What?!?! I made it... one whole day! That's right, I count that as a success. To reflect on the day despite trying to get used to the food (which isn't too bad) and all the water ( I pee like every 30 min) I feel positive. I think the most difficult part of the day though, was to actually write down my weight and all my measurements. It makes you very, very vulnerable. All those self loathing things I secretly think about myself and all the denial I allow myself to live in, is encompassed in numbers; just plain numbers. You would think that numbers couldn't cause pain or sorrow but they do, or at least I allow myself to feel those things if the "numbers" do not measure up to what I think they should. As much as I want to ignore the numbers I can't anymore. This is REALITY. I must face it. One day at a time one NUMBER at a time. So here are the numbers for today.
1 day
5 medifast meals
1 lean and green
12 glasses of water
1 tiny thin layer of self hate removed
Love Angela
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