Todays menu... oatmeal crunch bar = pretty good. Strawberry crunch bar = not quite as good. WAAATTTTTERRRRRRR = my badder is floating just thinking about it. Maryland crab soup = not to shabby. So excited it had corn and peas and little pieces of what I can only imagine to be crab (just keep thinking its crab angela, CRAB. Could be chicken for all I know...but what ever). That is as far as I have gotten today. Stopped by my friends house and saw cookies on the counter, didn't even start to drool. (yeah me!)
I have spent a lot of today within my own head. So much going on in there, most of which I can't even put into words. I feel myself wanting to tear up at pretty much anything ( not just at hallmark commercials); I don't know if I can handle being a cry-baby, maybe all the water I am drinking needs another way out and so it comes out as tears as well. Not likely, but I thought it sounded good. I desire control and order in my life, or at least I think I do. Lately control and order are just words not actions. I have felt a bit over-whelmed and in a way out of control. So today, to create order and have at least one thing under control in my life I have decided to organize and unpack; aahhhhh organinzing...LOVE IT! I can feel the therapy working, and the tension releasing already. It's the little things you know.
It's only day 2 and already I am feeling like an emotional basket case. My life coach says that its normal. I have used food to "hide" from things and now since I don't have the food to hide behind (like a piece of toast can really hide me, I mean really) I have to actually feel the emotions. I don't think I like this..how about you just pass me a sandwhich instead? WHAT?!?!? no sandwhich... FINE see if I care. I am just going to cry into my glass of water.
Love Angela
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