Today ohhh today. Today I have felt hungry but at the same time not. I have felt more irritable mostly, and tired. Tried on a pair of pants I used to wear today....got them buttoned, but couldn't breath. Should I have such high expectations after just only a week and a half; i think not. I would be setting myself up for failure if I did that. Hasn't helped my mood though. I just wish this isn't so dang hard. Really hard, hard, hard!
Went with my life coach to pick up my nephew from school, he was sick and his dad wasn't able to get him, so we did. On the way home he was "starving" and even though he was going to have chicken soup when we got home he wondered if he could have just "a little cheeseburger" to hold himself over until we got home. Wouldn't I like to have "a little cheeseburger, or 5" to hold me over! But nooooooo, I sulked in my seat eating my medifast bar. Through the drive thu we went. I couldn't look at the menu and once he had the burger in the car I literally had to plug my nose until most of the smell was gone with the windows down. Once we were home I wanted to get in my car and go back. Instead I made some soup. (sad face)
Today has been hard, I don't want to do this for another 51 weeks or so. It takes a long time to undo years, YEARS, years of bad choices. I can't expect things to change overnight. That doesn't mean I don't want it to. I am just having a poor me moment... it will pass!
no layers removed today...
Love Angela
You are awesome Angela! Don't give in! You have inspired me!
ReplyDeleteHang in there. It will get easier. Promise.
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