I am having a bit of bloggers block today. It was just one of those average days. I am really focused on tacos today. More like mexican food in general; burritos, tacos, chips and salsa, chimi's, more tacos, taco salad, tacitos, more tacos. Just give it all to me. My life coach keeps saying its not about the food, but I don't believe her. Well, I guess I do because I am not really hungry but I am kind of bored and tired so that combo really gets me in the munchie mood. She informs me today as we are diving by a taco joint that "did you know that there are 24 grams of fat in a hard taco, and that in a soft taco there is only 14 grams?" Do I really give a crap, just give me the taco darn it! Guess, mexican food isn't her down fall now is it? I can't even go to my room to find my hidden stash of junk. Why you say; BECAUSE I DON'T HAVE ONE! I was illegally searched before I moved into my life coaches house and she took all that I had. Ok not true, I ate it all before I came over here but it makes her sound like the bad guy and for people to feel sorry for me. If you really felt sorry for me you would send me a care package with the following items: goldfish crackers, fried chicken, 2 tacos (soft shell please, less fat), 1 cheese burger, a large fry, poore brothers salt and vinegar potato chips, and some orange juice. You will have to overnight it so it doesn't go bad. Please, and thank you!
Ok, so I am really getting tired of my thoughts being about food. I don't even TRY to think about food it just happens. Again, I should start those hobbies so I can focus elsewhere. Today I looked in the mirror after I got dressed and thought that I looked fatter then when I started this Medifast/take shape for life. I know it's not true but I just felt that way today. Got me a little down in the dumps, when you have this much to loose time seems to drag. It is going to take a LONG time before I will see big changes. On a positive note, it is getting easier to remember to be thankful for this opportunity to do this. That I have a safe environment to allow myself to be vunerable and people who love me without condition, and who hold my hand and let me cry, scream, laugh, stomp my feet, and be surrely. YEAH team Angela you are the best!
Now for more poetry....
Meals full of nutrition designed to help me lose,
Eating 5 a day I just don't know what to choose.
Did you drink your water? Eight glasses a day.
I believe I have and to the bathroom I am on my way.
Fresh veggies oh how I love you,
Add some chicken oh thats yummy too.
Strength to over come this,
Take shape for life and my coach will assist.
Love Angela
Speaking of hobbies, I still have fabric that you could help me cut up and and piece and sew together.
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