Dear Blog; Day 28 (4 weeks down)

Today is the end of week 4. (technically 2 days left in the month, but who is counting it has been a month ok, OK).  Today I have again let my guard down.  So much better then last Sunday, but still I let myself indulge.  I need to pay more attention as to why I can't just do something else to occupy myself.  I did go and sort through my boxes some more and my dad sat out with me and talked with me and spent time with me.  While I was doing this my mind was focused somewhere else so I didnt really think about eating, but as soon as I got in the house it is all I wanted to do.  Even as write I am thinking about what I can eat.  Have you also notice how many more food ads there are on tv around dinner time..between 4:30 and 6 pm.  Ps. there are a lot of good deals on pizza right now, just in case you were wondering.

Things I have learned this week.  Let's see.....  I have learned that I have held on to a lot of things I don't need anymore.  I have learned that it takes time to see results, if it happened so quickly I wouldn't appreciate it as much.  I have learned that I have been slacking on my water drinking and that I can feel the difference.  I have learned that I need to think of sat and sun as just ordinary days, hopefully that will help me with wanting to eat all the time.  I have learned that I need to sleep at least 7 hours for me to be able to have a successful, and positive day;  if I am too tired my guard goes way down.  I have learned that if I am prepared it isn't quite as difficult having people eat things in front of me I am choosing not to eat.   And finally I have learned to be a little more patient with myself.  I know I have said this a lot but I need to realize that I am in the process of undoing years and years of bad habits and although one month is AWESOME, I have many more months to go to change the negative into positive.  RESULTS WILL TAKE TIME!

No layers of self hate removed today, but one giant self hug and pat on the back and a reminder that tomorrow is the start of week 5 and one step closer to my goal.

Love Angela