Have you noticed that the majority of commercials on tv are FOOOD related? Yep they are. Would I have noticed before this week, probably not. Do I notice now; what do you think? OF COURSE! I find myself having to change the channel if one comes on. I don't think it will be like that forever but until I get used to the changes in my life i am going to have to keep myself semi-quarantined. Just like someone dealing with any other addiction. Is there rehab for foodaholics? I know there is fat camp for kids etc but is there some place that I can send myself for a month and learn how to eat right? Doesn't that just sound so warped. I need lessons on how to eat right. Don't you learn how to eat when you are a kid? Why do I have to re-learn it as an adult. Guess that is just one of the many things I am going to learn over the course of this life change.
Tonight after dinner I couldn't allow myself to put the food away. No, it wasn't because I was lazy.. (I read your mind don't deny it!) it was because I didn't trust myself. I knew that if I had to go through the motions of putting food away some how I would feel like I was going to miss out on it or something. I also know how good it tastes and I would just have to eat it right then whether i was hungry or not. What is that? Like the food is somehow going to grow legs and walk away if it sits in the fridge over night. (Let it go Angela) So as I sit here blogging I would be lying if I said I haven't thought about the roast still sitting in the fridge. It's sitting right next to my sugar free medifast pudding which i will soon consume. Not that I can confuse pudding for roast or even get away with it. I have worked too darn hard these 4 days to let the roast get the better of me. Get thee back darn roast, and hand me my pudding!
Love angela
Maybe on one of those reality shows... like biggest loser, you could learn to eat right. I'm scared of that show, I'd die with the workouts alone. Krista pines to go on it with "Bob and Jillian". Besides, if you went on that show, when would you have time to entertain me with your writings?
ReplyDeleteAlso, my mom used to always say "Get thee behind me, devils food cake!" It reminded me of your last sentence in this post. My mom was pretty funny too!
Thanks so much for the support. I would never make it on biggest loser. I would die too! Its one thing to expose myself in a blog but a completely different thing to do it on life TV, not going to happen! I know how much Krista loves that show. ha ha
ReplyDeleteI think its amazing how much diet and exercise are a mental battle. I started going to the gym about a month ago, and realized that a lot of the reason I can't do push ups or run on a treadmill is because I tell myself I can't do it.
ReplyDeleteThen I started a diet and told myself I couldn't live on it because I couldn't eat cheese. However when I made dinners without the cheese, I didn't miss it that much.
Angela, I just LOVE you!!! I have been on way too many diets, I think I will be on one for the rest of my life. The quote that I love and say daily is, NOTHING TASTES AS GOOD AS THIN FEELS!!
ReplyDeleteDon't give up Angela, you can do this! I know it is so hard, but will be so worth it:) love you!