Dear Blog: Day 4

Let me start with last night.  You remember that growling monster I previously mentioned, well it was NOT, in any sense of the word, ready to hibernate last night.  All I kept thinking about was popcorn, warm buttery popcorn with white cheddar cheese popcorn topping; hmmm... sticking to my fingers, licking it off (OH MY GOSH SERIOUSLY...get a grip angela). As we were about to go upstairs to our respective bedrooms we stopped by the food pantry for our last snacks and/or meals.  I informed my life coach, I was starving!  Her response..."are you really straving, like stomach growling starving, or I am bored so I want to eat and think I am starving,starving?"  My response, "like stomach growling starving!" Her response, "well thats end of day 3 for you, DRINK SOME WATER, tomorrow will be better." REALLY, really?!?!? Drink water; like that would have replaced the satisfying taste of the cheeseburger that I was about to run out and buy.  But alas I resigned myself to the yummy water (sarcasm inserted) simply because I lacked the motivation and strength (from hunger) to get my butt to the car.  33 ounces of water later (floating) I was upstairs. Parting words from my coach, "DO NOT GO DOWN STAIRS FOR ANY REASON!"  (instructions followed, begrudgingly).

Welcome day 4.  Memories of last nights starvation issues have faded away and I have a new outlook on Medifast.  I can do this, I am strong..... wait, I have to pee.  Ok, I'm back.  I have actually decided to venture out of the house into reality the land of fast food, grocery stores and buffets.  Did you know there are precisely 4 McDonalds, 3 Taco bells, 2 Carl's Juniors and 4 Burger Kings between 67th and Happy Valley and 91st and Northern?  I didn't either but there are.  And you know what I did? I drove past all of them without rolling down my window to see if I could smell them or turning in to purchase something I know I would regret later.  GOOOOOOO ME!    So here I sit, waiting for a pat on the head for doing what millions of people do everyday, drive past fast food places without going in.  Do they fight with their inner-self and carry on inner dialogs about how "we don't need that, or that isn't good for us so we will just move on. "But I really want it, it tastes good; ok we will stop."  You don't?  Well I do.

Today I count this small thing as a big victory.  I CAN allow myself to tell me that I don't need that and that i am ok.  The yummy medifast bar I have in my purse will taste just as good, as well as, the gallons of water I am in the process of consuming over the course of the day. (slight exaggeration).  By saying no to that gives ME the power over the food, as it should be; not the other way around. 

Score so far:   Angela: 1  Food: 0

Love Angela