Oh Thursday... the last day with my dad before he leaves. We were supposed to go to Prescott (pronounce prescutt not prescott, just ask a native arizonian they will tell you) but we had a huge cold snap and well Prescott was only suppose to get up to 19 degrees. Cold does not equal a good time, always. So we gave dad some alternative options for entertainment. We decided on lunch at a buffet. (Old Country buffet...weird I know but my dad likes it) Yes I said buffet. I have to admit I was scared, really scared. Who goes to a buffet (thats not known for being a salad buffet) and eats salad, especially when there is pluthera of fried foods so much more inviting to consume. Well that person would be me...yep me. No chicken, no corn dogs, no mashed potatoes, no fish sticks, no corn bread, no chicken fried steak and certainly no lemon bars. What is left at a buffet then? Well, salad, more salad, poached fish, salad, terriyaki beef and broccoli, oh and more salad. I also had a little bit of chicken but I had to have my life coach prepare it because I didn't trust myself not to eat the crunchy oh so yummy fried skin. (drooling, mouth watering, licking my lips as I type). She saved me from possibly giving in at that moment. Instead she just handed me a little plate with just the cut up pieces of chicken, no crunchy skin in sight. I love her! I made it. As did my life coach. I had to hold her back so she wouldn't bum rush the dessert buffet; but we both survived. ( I do not recommend a buffet for everyday meals if you are on a diet, that is like standing on the train tracks just waiting for the train to come; dumb just dumb).
With tummy's full we headed to a movie. No popcorn, or candy or nachos for me, I don't need those things to enjoy a movie..at least not today (I just ate remember). After the movie we rented a few more movies and headed home to sit in front of the 55 inch tv with a blanket and family and veg for the rest of the day. Such a great time. I again consumed to many peanuts as well as some peanut butter (sooo much sodium, I can still feel the bloating and swelling...you think I would learn). It seems like there is more success then failure as of lately. I feel positive and a sense of strength. I hope I am able to keep those thoughts and feelings especially on days where things are harder.
A tiny thin layer of self hate removed.
Love Angela
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