Today I felt like I was superwoman so I decided running all over town was a GREAT idea. Well, not so much. I wore myself out and feel like crud again. So there I was a puddle on the sofa.
This morning I don't know what happened. My brain shut off and I was just going through the motions. I found a can of chicken on the shelf I took it out, opened it, mixed in a little mayo (very little mind you)grabbed some medifast crackers and before you know it, it was gone. I could feel myself fighting against myself in my mind but my body kept going through the motions. I couldn't seem to stop it. It could have been worse I guess, but I don't like the fact that I couldn't stop myself. Or I at least felt like I couldn't stop myself, that is a very weird feeling. I then told myself well, it was the same amount of calories as one medifast meal so I will just eat one less. That is the right thing to do either, that causes other problems. So there I was,wondering why? I have to admit at that time I WAS very hungry. But I was also standing in front of a pantry stocked with medifast stuff (the stuff I am SUPPOSE to eat). I guess at that moment my rebellious thin side took over and demanded I eat some "real" food. (Just so you know thin side, until the fat side of me catches up to you...real food is in limited supply and MEDIFAST is your new best friend so GET USED TO IT! Quit trying to sabatoge me!)
Love Angela
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