So I have recovered a little I am feeling stronger and stronger. I went through some of my boxes today, finished those off. I have started a garage sale collection, maybe make myself a few pennies so that I can rub them together....get it people say they don't have 2 cents to rub together, but I would if I had a garage sale and made pennies...lol(Ok I know not my finest line but still it was funny in my head). I decided to go through a box of old papers, cards, letters etc and as I was doing that my cousin was watching a series on Netflix that she has gotten into; well needless to say I was sucked into the mind numbing world of tv trama-drama and I couldn't turn away. When 2:30 am rolled around I managed to tear myself away from the screen and head upstairs.
I don't know what has come over me. I am finding little ways to ignore the nag in my head. The one that says you don't need that, or are you really hungry or just bored? I push it aside and pretend I can't hear it. As we were watching tv I know I got up and got something to eat at least 4 different times. Nothing big, a pickle here, or a hard boiled egg there, or a medifast bar. That isn't the point it is the point that I wasn't hungry I had had dinner and my meals, but I still felt like I needed to eat, just because. Maybe I need to invent something that zaps my hand every time I go to the fridge or pantry making me think if I really really want to eat or if I am just feeling a void of some sort. At night when I am laying in bed I think about these things. I should be sleeping heaven knows I want to be, but instead thoughts dance around in my head like little children on the playground they just can't get enough of the dancing round and round and round they go!
Score for today Angela 8 Food 2
Love Angela
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