11 weeks down. It has almost been 3 months. I know I say this a lot but it feels like forever since I started this journey. I took the time today to get myself ready for church. I wore my contacts, put makeup on, really thought about what I was going to wear, and took time on my hair. I knew that the choir was singing in church today and I knew that people had no where to look but at the choir. I get so very self conscious. All I see in my head is a big neon sign on my chest that reads "I'm fat please stare at me!" No matter how hard I try to make myself look good I can't cover up the fact that I am fat. But today felt a little bit different. I felt a little less fat today. I even got a couple of compliments today. Makes a girl feel good.
Things I have learned this week. I DO NOT like to feel stuffed and I hope I never feel that way again. Every once in a while I need some unexpected warm fluffy's. I know it may seem selfish but I like to get the random I am thinking about you texts or calls or emails. I get pretty lonely sometimes. I really like to cook and I miss baking. I have learned that scapbooking is a great hobby, I really quite enjoy it. I have learned that there is no point in sneaking food it does not help me in any way. I have learned that I love to hear people laugh and get hugs from most everyone; except stinky guys with bad B.O. I have also learned that I need to start loving me, because I am worthy of love. And finally I have learned that I can do this and be successful.
I leave thursday for my 13 day vacation. This vacation finishes up week 12 through week 13 and into week 14. I will continue to check in and keep up with this blog. I know I am going to need it, as well as having all of my life coaches numbers on speed dial. I cross my fingers and toes that I will be able to keep up my momentum! Here is to a great week 12!
Love Angela
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