Sooo my hard work of getting myself back together paid off. I am down the 6 lbs that I had mysteriously gained the last week or so PLUS I am down 7 new lbs. So that is a total of 68 lbs to date. GOOOOO ME! So to celebrate I promptly went to the fridge and had a piece of cheese! What is that??? I should go run around the block or go buy a new shirt or something, instead I go to the fridge and eat something! I need to have my head examined I think. After that I took myself upstairs so that I would do my best to stay away from where the food was. (it worked for a little while, but I over did it a bit throughtout the day.) I will get myself back together again. I do not, I repeat, I DO NOT WANT TO REPEAT THE LAST COUPLE OF WEEKS. It is too much work to relose what I once lost.
I was pretty productive today. I got all my clothes hung up and folded and put away; I even got all my misc. papers filed that have found random homes around my room. I feel so much lighter when things are in their place. At least I have control over that right? So after I finished that I rewarded myself with something from the fridge! I mean seriously angela....food again why is it always food??!?!? One day at a time one situation at a time.....that is all I can focus on.
It is amazing how just like any other addiction when you are in stressful, sad, happy, angry, scary etc situations the first thing you think of is the one thing you should avoid to fill the void. It take so much time to think differently and to react differently. But eventually I know that the time that I am spending changing habits now will be so beneficial down the road it is just getting through these difficult times now to reep the rewards later! I am well on my way to optimal health and I am pretty darn proud of myself for what I have accomplished thus far. I look forward to this next week and challenges I will face that will make me stronger in my resolve to get healthy!
Love Angela
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