Monday of the final week of the first session of classes. This week is definitely off and running. I managed to get a handle on the homework situation. I feel pretty confident this week.
With focusing on this homework my brain hasn't had much time to think of much else..but food manages to wiggle its little way in there constantly. I think I probably think about food like others think about their children (all the time). I wonder what the steak is doing in the fridge? Hmmm that salad is looking a bit droopy today, maybe it needs a hug? Aww it is hardboiled eggs birthday i need to get him a gift...how about he give me a gift; the gift of a snack (yum).
I have been trying to remind myself that the end result is worth more than the food that i want to eat RIGHT NOW, but I just seem to laugh at myself and go to the fridge. It isn't about the food. I know that. But that doesn't stop me from going and opening the fridge doors and staring at all my little comfort friends in there just begging for me to "choose me, choose me!" I don't want to choose...I want to leave them all in there, but somehow I feel bad and I grab for something anyway. I often feel like I am watching myself from the outside in slow motion and I can't seem to stop myself.
I thought having homework to occupy my time would be good but sometimes it makes it worse. I am determined to find a balance. A balance that i can live with!
Love Angela
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