Ohhh ya baby last day of class. I can't even wait to be done and have a little relax time. I like how they are doing this program so that you dont' feel so overwhelmed especially with it being so fast paced. I have all my projects done and I just a small little online test to take. I am so ready for it bring it on. We had impromptu sharing of our PBL projects which I was soo not prepared for but I did well on it, so that is good. I am just glad it is over so we can go and hang out for a bit.
After class we all went to this place called santizi brothers for happy hour (me and my water!). I had a chef salad which I was very proud of myself considering the basket of french fries next to me and the pizza sitting eye level in front of me. I pictured over and over again in my head my hand reaching out and just picking up a slice and putting it in my mouth. I resisted which takes a lot of willpower and mental focus. It is so much easier just to not think about it. Unfortunately I don't get the luxury of not thinking about it. I had a good time with my classmates but I needed to get going. I started housesitting today.
I had an hour drive to mull over the last couple of weeks. Ups and downs like normal...but still struggling with food. I know it is an ongoing battle and that I am trying to undo years of habits in just a few short months and that i need to cut myself some slack but I am affraid if I cut myself too much slack I will just continue to fall and I can't do that; I can't let myself fall I don't know if I would ever be able to pick myself back up from a fall like that. So instead I cheat in little ways.
I am staying the night with my grocery shopping friend. We went to dinner tonight and spent a bit of time together. I am excited because this weekend is pretty much her and I. I don't get to see her much so I am really looking forward to it.
Love Angela
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