Guess what people it is the half way point of my year journey! Yep you heard me I am now on the downhill side of the year. I want to be excited about it but at the same time I am nervous. I have come a long way, yes, but I still have so far to go and right now I am feeling a bit discouraged and well, a bit hopeless. Remember that self sabatoge I mentioned yesterday well it is in full force. I went to the store with my grocery shopping friend and I bought lunch meat, and cheese, and peanuts (all stuff I don't need to have). Granted is better then getting into the crackers, and cookies and fruit snacks and frozen pizzas and cereal and bread that is lying around the house I am staying at. I can feel them staring at me while I am watching tv or swimming in the pool. They figure if they make me feel uncomfortable enough I will just eat them to get rid of them. Well, as much as I want to I won't give them that kind of power, instead I lock them in the pantry. Take that food temptors.
My grocery shopping friend and I did what we do best, grocery shop. She needed food in her house (she basically only goes when I go with her lol) and well I needed out of the house. Sooo not the best place to go when the food demons in my head have a pretty good hold on my brain. I figure I can make it if I have someone else with me. I did get a few things like I mentioned before but it could have been a lot worse if I had been on my own.
We got some fixins for dinner and we bbq'd. Ya thats right two girls bbq'd with no boys present. Talk about amazing...see mom I lit the grill all by myself and I still have all the hair on my head AND my eyebrows. After dinner we watched some tv and then she headed home. Tomorrow is the 4th and we are going to have a harry potter marathon...without popcorn. I can't wait.
Love angela
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